Xmas would never be the same w/out my little bro..

Why?? It’s also Mike’s Bday on the 25th..
It is also the time when I get hella homesick.. ><

I used to get all excited when Xmas in coming. My family and I are members in one of the biggest church in Jakarta, the Cathedral. I remember all of my family members are all busy preparing for Xmas.. My bro is one of the altar boy, he would practice and sometimes I would see him from the side and some of my church friend would prepare the tent and everything.. I miss the church waiting at the tend and all..

I miss the Xmas song my mom used to play in her radio every day in December..

And right after the last midnight mass I would run around in the Church and trying to find my bro and hoping to be the first person to wish him a merry Xmas and happy Bday.. That is the kind of Xmas that I miss these past 4 years.. The Xmas where I would be with my friends and giving many blessing and getting some too.. Lighting candle in front of Mother Mary and Joseph.. I miss all of those..

As for now,, Xmas is not the joyful time anymore. Every Xmas eve my eye would get all teary and just wishing I could be with my family and friends… Something that happened annually years a go and something so simple and now just something that is impossible for me to get…

You know what,, Santa? I don’t wish for snow, I don’t wish for toys.. All I want for Xmas is just my family. The three most important person in my life.. My Xmas has never been fancy.. We don’t have Xmas tree and we don’t exchange gift during Xmas but we just get together and celebrating Jesus’  Bday and Mike’s Bday and that would me happy..

I dont know when will I get to go home and celebrate the Bdays with my family.. I just wish it will happen soon..

Happy B’day Mike. I sometimes just don’t believe that he is wearing that white and gray uniform you know.. He is a big boy now.. and handsome too..!! I wanna hug him.. he is like my big teddy bear.. hihihi.. I miss him like hella.. This my 4th Xmas without him..!! again it feels hella strange..

I hope next or next next Xmas I get to wish him Happy Bday in person and hug him so tight so then he knows how much I love him and I hella sad to miss many of his Bday.. I’m just so sad that I don’t get to see him grow up..

Aniwae,, sorry you guys.. somewhat these past years because of all of this I don’t have Xmas spirit and kinda make Xmas become a sad time.. but I wish you guys a Merry Xmas, may the God’s blessing be with you..  <3

2010 resolution…

LOTS..!!!

- get a job

- buy ticket SFO-CGK

- buy a car

- be more patient

- seriously on my diet..!!!

- exercise more often!!

- be less hyper

- be positive thinking

- be nice to people

- find a mr. right.. lol

- buy my mom something..!!

- get an itouch

- get my bro an itouch

oh well.. finger crossed.. wish me luckk.!!!

in love again..

It’s been a while since the last time I’m in love.. or fall in love.. lol.. Like legitimately fall in love.. and I am..
As far as I can remember the feeling is not cool.. and I know that it’s not pleasant.. and yes it is not..

Especially for this one,, I have no hope kinda thing.. lol.. so it makes it even more sad.. hahahhaha.. oh well.. but I’ll again just keep praying and hoping..

The guy (well of course it’s a guy) he is very much my type.. the kind who wouldn’t talk if it’s not necessary and very very good listiner. Hella tall and athletic looking.. hmm.. He’s not too good looking. he is very very sweet.. haha…

I just wish to see him more often next year.. *finger crossed*

Sad Blog?

Not sure why but then this blog has a very sad blog..
No fun and happy stuffs..
when I first started blogging it wasn’t like this at all..

goshh.. what happen to me.

It’s that time of the year again..

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true…
All I want for Christmas is
You … yeah

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
(and I) Don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
(ahhh) Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you…You baby

Oh I won’t ask for much this Christmas
I won’t even wish for snow
(and I) I’m just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won’t make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
(ahh)I won’t even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
‘Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You baby

Oh all the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere (so brightly baby)
And the sound of children’s
Laughter fills the air (oh)
And everyone is singing (oh yeah)
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won’t you bring me the one I really need -
won’t you please bring my baby to me…

Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You oooh

All I want for Christmas is you baby…

Piece of my life..

Pas kelas gov,, kita ada assignment di kompi lab gtu.. gw bukannya ngerjain malah browsing.. *gubrak* gw ngeliat2 poto2 gw di gallery gw yang tersebar dimana2.. (kayak ada banyak ajeh..)

Lalu,, gw kangen sama moto2 lagih.. sbenernya gw pengen moto2 lagih.. tapi gw gak ada photoshop dan gw males nyari photoshop.. huhuhu.. plus juga,, gw lagi seru banget maen online game yang di perkenalkan oleh si piendhy.. (Piendhy lagi khan setannya) huhuhu.. guah bingung.. taon ini gw bener2 cuti banget lah dari moto2..
Lagian,, emank lagi banyak banget kerjaan skola juga sieh. banyak guru2 yang gak berkeprimurid-an..

Kangen ajeh masa2 santai gw dolo.. moga2 ada waktu lagi gw sante2 kali yah.. huhu..

story.. story..

Ok2.. about to sleep.. tapi gw mao mengabadikan momen hidup gw kmaren.. ehh,, kmaren apa 2 hari yang lalu yaa..

jadee sore2 khan gw lagi online.. trus skitar jem 3 sore waktu US.. temen gw manggil2.. di msn. si ricky.. trus gw bingung donk.. subuh2 di indo.. weekday.. kok tuh anak udah bangun?? ada bencana apaan??trus dia ngomongnya ngaco2 gtu.. well,, ya normal sieh.. soalnya dia khan ngaco molo.. BUAHHAHAH..
trus kite telponan lewat msn.. ternyata ada si yuda dsono..

Ngobrol lah kite ber3.. Aneh.. ada yang aneh.. Yuda jadi banyak ngomong,, dia banyak cerita gtu.. padahal mr cool itu khan jarang ngomong.. huekekekke.. kalo gak di panas2in dia bakal milih dieeemm ajah..
Lalu karena ricky juga mayan ngaco gw menarik kesimpulan kalo mreka bdua lagi aneh.. dan gw nanya “Lu bdua abis minum ye??” trus mreka ktawa2.. -.-
ternyata mreka abis dr ultah party temen2 dan pada minum baru pulang subuh.. ya oloo…. temen2 gw udah pada gede.. heuekkekeke..

gw bener2 baru pernah denger yuda tipsy,, soalnya dia tuh biasanya the kind of guy yang minum secukupnya dan lebih milih buat jadi supir yang awake.. dan ternyata pas die tipsy die lucuuuu banget..!!! sumpahhh.. dia bawell.. apa karena itu dia kagak pernah mao minum banyak2? (btw,, gis,, u seriously should see when he’s tipsy,, he’s cute..) hahaha.. sumpahh..

Anyway,, enak yee hidup.. hahaa. pulang pagi,, skip kelas.. hahha… I wish i could’ve join themm..!!
udah lama gak ngobrol sama smuanya nieh..
Masing pada sibukk.. guah sibuk skola,, tuh kunyuk2 pada sibuk skola apa party sieh.. huekekekekke.. dan ce2 oz itu juga pada ape kabarnye siehh. hahaha… kapan kite ktemuaann……………….

kalo kita ngumpul.. gw janji,, gw mao dah di ajak banyak2an minumm.!!! gw pasti menang,, kita banyak2an minum kopi yee.. hauahahhahahah… geloo ahhhhhhhh……..

udeh ahh ngantuk.. hihi..

bad mood?

It’s been a while since I have the mood to blog..

I’m not in a good mood right now.. well,, after these exhausting days.. I finally get some times to breathe.. I don’t have that much homework.. Which I could sit back, read some book or watch some tv.. or even sleep.. since I really need to catch up on my sleep.. ><

But..! I can’t.. I mean it’s nobody’s fault.. well,, some church ppl are practicing music outside.. which I can hear very well the sound.. I was thinking to sleep early.. I couldn’t.. so well,, just a bit upset.. but ok lah.. I’m listening on gabe Bondoc.. Viva lavida,, my fave.. with some other background I still could hear.. haha..

Honestly I’m very very tired and sleepy right now.. but I’m gonna be able to sleep anyway.. wondering when are gonna be done.. >< I have a frickin’ early class tomorrow.. ><

and you know what,, I guess it’s the global cooling.. hahah.. It’s early October.. but in teh morning it’s like freezing..!!! crazyy..!! feels liek winter..!! that would be cool if in winter there would be snow in calif,, but creepy at the same time.. haha..

anyway.. hoaaaaaaa…… It’s oct alreadyy..!!!! mean xmas is coming soon?? goshh..!!! and 2010 is coming up too.. well,, I should be happy.. meaning I’m almost done with high school.. no actually sad..!! I kinda wanna stay in HS.. hahaha.. I love it..

Happy B’day MOM..!!

No offense to my mom.. not trying to offend her or anything but since four years a go I’ve always wanted to delete October 4th from my life.. and until today I still wish to do so..

I honestly don’t really know why,, or maybe I do and one more person does.. I’m just trying to run away from the real life.. anyway my life feel surreal anyway..

dunno,, weird..

Thank You

and I miss your voice too..