Why?? It’s also Mike’s Bday on the 25th.. ![]()
It is also the time when I get hella homesick.. ><
I used to get all excited when Xmas in coming. My family and I are members in one of the biggest church in Jakarta, the Cathedral. I remember all of my family members are all busy preparing for Xmas.. My bro is one of the altar boy, he would practice and sometimes I would see him from the side and some of my church friend would prepare the tent and everything.. I miss the church waiting at the tend and all..
I miss the Xmas song my mom used to play in her radio every day in December..
And right after the last midnight mass I would run around in the Church and trying to find my bro and hoping to be the first person to wish him a merry Xmas and happy Bday.. That is the kind of Xmas that I miss these past 4 years.. The Xmas where I would be with my friends and giving many blessing and getting some too.. Lighting candle in front of Mother Mary and Joseph.. I miss all of those..
As for now,, Xmas is not the joyful time anymore. Every Xmas eve my eye would get all teary and just wishing I could be with my family and friends… Something that happened annually years a go and something so simple and now just something that is impossible for me to get…
You know what,, Santa? I don’t wish for snow, I don’t wish for toys.. All I want for Xmas is just my family. The three most important person in my life.. My Xmas has never been fancy.. We don’t have Xmas tree and we don’t exchange gift during Xmas but we just get together and celebrating Jesus’ Bday and Mike’s Bday and that would me happy..
I dont know when will I get to go home and celebrate the Bdays with my family.. I just wish it will happen soon..
Happy B’day Mike. I sometimes just don’t believe that he is wearing that white and gray uniform you know.. He is a big boy now.. and handsome too..!! I wanna hug him.. he is like my big teddy bear.. hihihi.. I miss him like hella.. This my 4th Xmas without him..!! again it feels hella strange..
I hope next or next next Xmas I get to wish him Happy Bday in person and hug him so tight so then he knows how much I love him and I hella sad to miss many of his Bday.. I’m just so sad that I don’t get to see him grow up..
Aniwae,, sorry you guys.. somewhat these past years because of all of this I don’t have Xmas spirit and kinda make Xmas become a sad time.. but I wish you guys a Merry Xmas, may the God’s blessing be with you.. <3