I Cried..

I called my mom last night.. I told her that I will be alone at home on Thank Giving.. Everyone is goin’ somewhere.. Well,, 5 People in my house the are going retreat and Lavin is goin’ to LA. I can’t go to LA,, mw aint didn’t let me.. The problem is just because the driver is teen.. and LA is so far.. She was right the one who will drive is my friend, he is teen.. but how could she become so paranoid..!? btw,, she gave me a good reason coz last march I just got a highway accident..

I told my mom about that. you know what,, she forced me to go retreat.. I was like,, r u serious??? Dude,, I’ll not go to the retreat and I know no one there.. I will not go retreat with a lot of adult there.. That,, Indonesian church retreat.. so,, all the kids,, adult,, teen are in the same place.. I will not go there,, dude.. I rather be alone at home.. I cried,, coz my mom kept asking me to go. I said no,, I will not go..!! whatever she say I will not go..!!! I told her that my cousin will come from Davis to here (my aunt’s daughter) I told my mom that she doesn’t even go to the retreat,, why should I go..!?

My mom doesn’t want me to be alone at home.. Why everyone is freakin’ paranoid..!? why don’t they think all the positive things instead the negative one..!? why my aunt thinks about accident,, why my mom thinks about burglary. WHY..!?

I don’t angry with my mom,, but why she doesn’t understand me..!? Why until I wanted to hang up the phone she still kept saying the same thing.. I finally talked to my bro.. I felt much better.. we had a small chat and he made me calm down.. Although, he doesn’t know about the retreat thing but, he told me about his stuffs, and I miss him..

I dunno what to say but,,
I will not go..