the tears yesterday
the champion tommorrow
forget the tears
be prepared for tommorrow
be strong
and keep the faith
your pride
is my pride
be the champion sis….
be the winner
never give up
that’s my sister
-kiu-
Damn baby
Just don’t understand what went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you…
As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don’t act like you don’t know
We were sittin’ at home in your mama’s livin’ room
Cause, we couldn’t be alone
See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that’s your favorite excuse
Growin’ up I was a fool; and I can’t lie I’m missing you
Listen and don’t trip
I think i need a bottle with a genie in it
Here’s my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I’ll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Makin’ love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish
One wish,
one wish, one wish, one wish,
one wish, one wish, one wish,
one wish, one wish, One wish,
one wish, one wish, one wish
Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back here
If so than searchin’ I’ll go, then I can have you for sho’
Then you’ll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don’t tell me what I’m feeling its make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn’t know what to do
I’d probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn’t be alone because without you I’m sick
Here’s my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all the way up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I’ll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish
I don’t even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I’ll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If i had one wish we would be bestfriends
knowing u is a great experience
share the happy and all the moments
happy face
is what u always show me
but now tears is in your face
i dont know why
feel sad when ur sad
feel bad when ur bad
dont cry sister….
dont cry
here beside you
here i am
to hear your pain
to feel your sorrow
to wipe out your tear
is all i want
dont cry sister
dont cry
give me ur best smile
like u always do
share with me
shall the pain be gone
no one will hurt u
as im here protecting u
dont cry sister
dont cry
-kiu-
mungkin saat nulis di blog ini gw masih bener2 gak tenang.. perasaan campur aduk banget.. dan juga,, aer mata masi netes.. blon mo tidur,, ada orang yang lagi gw tunggu 
gw bener2 tegang,, hari ini gak bisa diem.. gw dah salto sampe puluhan kali,, kali ajah gw tenang,, soalnya biasanya gtu.. taunya nggak.. maen sama hamster pun gak ngaruh..mata segede bola golf sembab gini.. huwh.. BT banget.. basok ada latihan jam 5.. harus dateng..
dia ngirimin gw email.. isinya dia minta knalan ulang.. soalnya chelnya beda.. dia gak knal chle yang ini.. chle yang ini mellow banget katanya.. si ndud dodol -.-
iya nieh,, knapa gw jd cengeng gini yaa..
jd nangis mulu gak karuan gini.. -.- gw ampe kesel ndiri.. mata gw perih.. pipi merah, idung merah.. gw dah mulai gak nikmatin badminton nieh.. malah bikin gw tegang,, pas buka2 calender.. isinya -.- jadwal tanding smua..
knapa coah dudud itu cuma bisa kasi jadwal.. -.- rese bener gw sampe kesel.. gw bingung mo ngapain,, tidur gak napsu.. huwh.. dah ahh,,
me: Halo..
him: blon tidur?
me: oh,, blon.. masoh nonton
him: knapa nontonya gak bsok aja?
me: gak bisa tidur..
him: knapa gak dicoba dolo? gmana mo latihan kalo kirang tidur?
me: cukup kok,, khan bangunya siang..
him: aku liat poto kamu sama lu2.. masi suka di pelok2 juga..
me: yee,, boneka khan bukan pajangan doank..
him: haha.. I wish I were lulu..
me: haha.. u wish..!! btw,, tadi aku liat kamu pake baju pink.. di kasi liat ricky.. bikin ilfill ajeh..
him: hahahhahahahaha..
me: kok ktawanya serem bener -.-
him: abisnya,, emank knapa sieh kalo pake pink..
me: ya ilfill ajeh.. abisnya..
him: iya,, ce ajeh gak pake pink masa co pake..
me: dih,, -.-
him: lah cewenya kyk kamu,, kalo pake pink ya aneh..
me: rese…
him: lagian jaman skarang banyak kok co pake pink..
me: iye,, bikin ilfill smua.. -.-
him: hahahaha.. dasarr bochelll…
me: hehe.. knapa nelpan lagi?
him: liat kamu online jem sgini.. emanknya gak dingin?
me: dingin,, tapi lagi nonton..
him: iya,, tapi khan kamu mesti tidur.. bandell..!!
me: iya2.. bentar lagi juag tidur.. janji..
him: emanknya lagi ngapain ajah?
me: nonton sambil chat.. sambil telpon..
him: ya uda.. gih nonton abis itu tidur yaa..
me: iyaa.. makasi ya dah telpon 
him: yep,, janji ya tidur..
me: iyaa rei..!!!!!
him: sip2.. babai.. good night..
me: bye.. have a nice day..
him: met tidur..
me: uhmm..
me: haloo..
him: hi..
me: uhhmm.. Rei?
him: yap,, gi apa?
me: lagi nonton ajah… ngapain jem sgini nelpon nyokap bae2 ajahkan?
him: nyokap bae kok.. jari kamu knapa?
me: ohh.. gpp kok..
him: smangat yaa bwt try outnya.. mana chel yang dulu.. yang tukang smangatin kita2 sbelom tanding?
me: haha,, chel yang itu gak tw dmana..
him: kalo gtu ini chel yang mana?
me: chel lagi BT, puyeng,, stress..
him: haha.. kalo gtu,, salah orang donk.. aku gak kenal chel yang ini.. kenalan donk..
me: huh..
him: kenapa gak lepas cin2 dah tau sakit?
me: karena gak mw..
him: bandel.. awas ya lengannya jangan sampe kyk kmaren ini.. nanti telponin nyokap biar gak bole maen lagi..
me: dih ngancem.. pacar apa kabar?
him: baik kenapa? cemburu..
me: ehh ndud,, rese.. GR ajeh..
him: hahahahha.. dih,, tuh buktinya cin2nya masih gak mo dilepas?
me: trus? emank knapa kalo gak mo lepas cin2..
him: khan ada artinya..
me: apa?
him: entahlah.. sbenernya mo cramah :p
me: apa?
him: scara minggu depan dah mulai badmintonya.. jangan suka begadang yaa.. makan teratur tuhh.. biar sehat,, truss jangan over excited kalo maen,, kalo emank dah sakit ya brenti jangan di paksain.. Kalo kalah ya jangan emosi,, khan ada pertandingan berikutnya..
me: hoalaaaa.. nyokap ajah kala cramahnya..
him: yee,, dibilangin,, abisnya bandel sieh.. tuh jari urusin dolo.. aku mesti siap2.. dah mo jalan..
me: iya2.. ajlan gih,, met pagi dah have a nice day..
him: byee.. cyaa.. btw,, salam dr ricky sama yuda..
me: iye salam balik.. babaii..
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that’s rei.. gak ngerti knapa dia doyan cramah -.- walo kadang gw puyeng tapi dia inget ajah sama gw huwh.. hope he his happy now
huhauahahaua.. darimembaca judul jangan membuat persepsindiri ya.. hehe.. Victor, dia partner mixed double di badminton gw.. dan stelah skian lama gw gak maen badminton hari ini gw sampe hampir 3 jem-an sama dia.. soalnya tgl march 1st kita bakal tanding..
Taon kmaren kita semped maen bareng beberapa kali.. dia salah satu cowo yang super duper bae yang pernah gw temuin.. taon kmaren tangan gw cidera tapi tetep gw mesti tanding sama dia.. truss,, dia bilang sama gw,, supaya gw mundur ajeh,, dia yang maen single lawan dua -.- gw sampe bengong,, gw gak dikasi mukul,, walo akhirnya menang.. Trus pas gw mo tanding single,, dia ngomong sama coachnya bwt gw istirahat bentar,, soalnya gw gak kuat tangannya.. ya pokoknya dia ae sumpa..
sampe pas off season pun,, dia slalu nanyain arm gw -.- dan tadi pas maen juga.. khan pas maen tangan gw pegel2 makanya gw pegangin arm gw.. dia nanya mulu.. arm gw knapa.. kalo sakit ya istirahat dolo gtu2 dahh..
dia bae banget dah,, dia ngajarin gw clear yang bener scara gw baru sadar clear yang slama ini gw lakuin salah -.- stupid me.. akhirnya bisa.. gw jd bangga sama diri ndiri.. hahahhaha.. man,, gw mesti latihan bener2 suapay menang,, soalnya gw penegn victor menang,, scara taon kmaren tragedi terjadi -.-
aniwae,, wish me luck ya bwt tandingan tgl 1 maret nanti
Dah lama gw gak nulis, kangen sama kamar biru gw, kangen sama pepes pedanya nyokap, kangen sama ade gw, kangen sama suara pesawat bokap gw. 
Gak berasa udah hampir dua taon gw ada di negara asing ini. Gw pengen pulang 
secara ada 1001 alesan yang bikin gw pengen pulang, tapi hanya ada satu alesan yang bikin gw tetep bertahan sekarang
Sayangnya alesan itu adalah goal hidup gw, satu alesan yang sebernarnya cukup menyiksa gw, tapi membahagiakan seseorang.
Sampe akhirnya, gw mencari hobby baru yang bikin gw betah dsini. Fotografi, yeaa.. Sesuatu yang tadinya pun gak pernah lewat di otak gw. Bahkan sebelumnya gw gak pernah tertarik sama dunia itu.. 
HIngga tepat setahun lalu, seseorang memperkenalkan gw sama sebuah web yang sekarang familiar dengan ‘FN’ juga teori2 tentang fotografinya yang bikin gw jatuh cinta dengan karyanya dan gak berusaha menutupi,, gw juga jatuh cinta sama fotografer itu 
. It was last year..
Setelah hari itu gw mulai tau kenapa seoarang fotografer memilih untuk mendedikasikan dirinya dibalik kamera laras panjang mreka 
Ternyata ada sesuatu yang menarik dari dunia dibalik kamera, sebuah perasan ingin menangkap semua momen hidup. ^ bulan menjadi penikmat poto, membuat gw juga ingin mempunyai karya yang bisa dinikmati orang lain. Gw membeli sebuah pocket kamera yang sekarang menjadi harta gw. SUdah 6 bulan lebih gw bermain2 dengan kamera kecil gw, tapi gw masih merasa poto gw gak pantes di nikmati
Masih banyak yang kurang dari poto2 gw. Fotografi bwt gw sekarang bukan sebuah mimpi, melinkan obsesi. Goal gw dalam 2 taon untuk bisa menghasilkan uang dan bisa bermain2 dengan olah digital. Obsesi itu yang bikin gw mau bertahan.. Gak lama lagi gw bisa kerja part time.. Igw bisa dapet duit untuk beli kamera SLR dan sambil nyari duit,, gw mau belajar potosop.. Jadi by the time gw punya gearnya gw dah tau poto2 gw mw di apain
I dunno it’s just my goal.. Gw tw,, gw punya cara gw sendiri buat bikin nyokap gw tersenyum
Tadi pas lagi jalan ke campus math, gw ktemu victor. Udah lama abis gw gak ktemu dia. Bwt yang gak knal Victor, dia itu partner badminotn gw bwt mixed double. dia bukan partner yang di tunjuk coach bwt gw.. tp kita comfortable maen bareng.. Gw udah jutaan kali reqiest bwt maen mixed gak pernah dikasih.. alhasil skarang gw maen girls double,, sama partner gw orang korea..
Aniwae, victor ngajakin gw bwt maen di irvington tournament march nanti. DIa yang bakal ngurusin pendaftaran,, dan bakal call gw sometimes soon bwt make sure. . Sebenernya gw pengen ajeh maen tapi gw blon sia, selama off season gw jarang abis latihan -.-
Gw takut kalah. I’m afraid of losing dan in yang bikin gw mikir dua kali bwt maen.. Kalo orang olah raga bwt fun sama sehat, kalo gw kompetisi.. Jadi gw gak peduli sama seberapa sakitnya tangan gw,, gw akan berusaha bwt menang.. Itu yang bikin tangan gw hampir masuk rumah sakit taon kemaren.. yea.. bad me.. dah tau tangan gak memungkinkan,, tapi masih ajah maen.. tapi pulang bw piala..
Gw gak berani kalah,, itu bisa bikin gw down banget.. dolo gw ngajakin victor ikut tournament pas gw on fire2nya.. dia malah ngomel2 khan tangan gw lagi sakit.. slama tangan gw blon sembuh,, dia gak mau maen.. well,, I’ve decided to play though.. moga2 menang dehh… pengen bikin seuatu yang baik di awal seasonn…
well done…
I wish,, my mom could see it by her self that I won 2 photo contest.. Thx to my Canon SD1000, for a fabulous photos that you got for me.. Thx to my friends who helped me.
Thursday night 1/18 was the last day to submit your photo.. I’m going to submit the silhouette of my friends,, and a glowing star, the last photo I made right before I submitted it.. I ask my friend to play with the lighter stick thingy and I took my tripod and try really hard to get a good picture..
I was thinking not to come to the photo contest, coz I wanna see another sing contest in the quad.. but,, I dunno why my feeling told me to go. So, I did.. I went there and the adviser told me that thy are goin’ to announce the winner..
I waited and waited til they showed all the pictures,, and my star was the winner.. haha.. I was like..!! “wayy to goo.. chell..!!” smilin’ happily..
When they tell us the second winner,, they open my silhouette picture.. I was like.. OMG..OMG.. haha.. I was hella surprise but happy (of course) at the same time..
I am happy coz,, I really have something to tell my mom about my achievements and my passion in photography.. I hope,, when I tell her she will understand that I want to take photography as my minor, not just for fun but because,, I konw what I’m doing, I know what I like to do,, I know where I’m good at..
once again,, Thx to my lovely tiny little pocket camera Canon powershot SD100,, thx to my friends (Lavin and Chris),, thx fopr those who voted for my photos,, thx to the star.. and thx God..!!
here are the pictures.. ^^
