In my English Class..

Guru gw lagi ngomel2 gara bikin essay ada yang nyopas dr internet.. Gw males dengeirn dia ngomel2.. toh hopefully essay gw ok2 ajeh.. jdnya gw log in ajeh trus baca2 blog..  Trus baca puisi gw yang ketika, gw bingung ndiri gw kesambet setan dari negeri mane bisa nulis bgitu.. hahahaha..

Trus,, kmaren gw found out kalo gw gak lolos masuk yearbook,, artinya kesempatan gw megang D40 kandas bgitu saja.. ato mungkin Tuhan berkehendak laen kalo gw gak bole pipndah agama.. Canon is my religion.. hahaha.. blakangan ini banyak hal yang terjadi yang gak sesuai sama yang harepin,, walo awalnya gw emank jatoh berat etc.. Lama gw mulai menikmati apa yang gw kerjain dan mulai menghargai dan bilang “let it flow” haha..

Contoh aje.. kmaren gw sppech contest hanya masuk finalist.. gw cool2 ajeh,, gak cranky.. Gw pikir positive yaitu emank lomba kmaren itu pertama kalinya gw public speaking kok (maksudnya orang bisa ngeliat muka gw,, kalo di radio khan kagak) dan juga bisa masuk finalist ajah dah bagus banget khann..
Lalu,, yearbook pas gw lkiat nama gw gak ada di list gw mikir.. mungkin emank gw blon sesuai sama yang mreka harapin,, kalo yearbook poto2nya kacau khan bisa gawat jadinya gw mesti blajar dolo kalo dah pro baru bolee..
Ada lagi kmaren Lynbrook tourney, gw maen mixed sama dave.. (SUMPAA Dave jago abis) kita game pertama banget kalah lawan seeded numba 1, which is jago amid2.. tapoi kita dapet 9 point (nine is a lot..!!) truss.. mreka pun sampe keringetan stengah mati.. artinya khan gw sama dave dah try our best.. dan mungkin untuk pertama kalinya gw kalah tapi gw puas sama game gw..

Gw mulai menerima sesuatu yang terjadi dan gak sesuai sama apa yang gw harepin,, it is a good thing, karena dunia khan lebi kejam dr pd apa yang smua orang banyangin khan.. juga toh gagal khan katanya awal dr keberhasilann.. makanya ya trima ajah kegagalan asal jangan gagal terus2an :p

Badminton kmaren gw hepii..!!1 karena khan gw maen mixed.. Trus khan pemain mixed harus bisa net drop.. It’s a must to know how to do net drop..!! dan gw khan bukan pemain mixed, jdnya net drop gw kaco tapi kmaren gw latihan and you know what..?! most of my mixed game.. net drop gw keren abis,. hahahahha.. ada lagi gw nge-back hand smashh.. I’m proud of my self lah pokoknya.. hahaha.. yeaa.. me… I feel that I’ve change the new me..

Ketika..

ketika ku memilih untuk menengok kebelakang, menatap duniaku yang dulu.. aku rindu akan dia, mreka, dan kita..
Ketika aku sadar bahwa cinta itu tak cukup untuk kita, kau sudah tak  ada di sampingku.. dan,,
Ketika kita tlah berpisah,, aku pun tersadar bahwa kau yang kucinta…

Andai ku bisa mengulang waktu..
Andai Ku bisa kembali ke masa itu..
Andai ku mampu mengucap kata cinta hari itu..

Andai kau ada di sisiku detik ini,,
biarku jelaskan semua..
Apa yang ku rasa,,
Apa yang ku cinta,,
Apa yang ingin kukatakan padamu..

Derasnya hujan,, ingatkan ku pada hangatnya dekapanmu..
Teriknya sang surya,, ingatkan ku pada hangatnya tatapan matamu..
Cahaya dewi malam,, ingatkan ku pada cerianya tawamu..
Deru ombak di pantai,, ingatkan ku pada teriakmu memanggil namaku..
Angin yang berhembus,, yakinkan ku bahwa suatu saat kita khan bersama..

Jika kita di ijinkan bertemu kembali,,
jangan kau ucap kata berpisah..
Biarkan aku buktikan,, bahwa cintaku tulus untukmu..
Ku tak ingin menyakiti hatimu dan hatiku untuk kedua kalinya..
Ijinkanku mengucap kata cinta..

 

_CheL_
San Jose, 24 Mei 2008..

Peaceful Morning..

I’ve been wishing for this kind of time since a long time a go.. I woke up at 11 am today.. Usually I wake up around 9 just because the noises that my housemates make, either people are chatting, or somebody is singing,, somebody is cooking, or door slamminng.. Today I can finnaly get my peacefulness.. 3 of my housemates are in LA.. three days weekend they are all going to disneyland.. Don’t ask me why I’m not goin with them.. I don’t want to talk about it.

It is not I’m happy they are gone.. Honestly, I can say I’m happy.. hehe.. at the same time I’m sad too..
I’m happy because, you know as I said.. Probably this is today was the first time I woke up naturally since a long time.. In afternoon, I can stay in my room browsing and listen to the birds.. It was really quite and peaceful.. I took a shower without worrying who’s outside and needs to go to the bath room.. It’s just like my own world,, my quite time that I really need since a long time..

I just realize that except all the friends that I need, friends that hanging out with me, having fun with me. I really do need this kind of time. Where I can enjoy my time with a really peaceful condition. It was really a nice weather too today.. Not that cold, not that hot.. I did my laundry today, cook for my lunch, watch drama, being lazy on my bed like now.. :p haha..
Nobody is calling me,, nobody is making noise,, nobody is here.. haha..

I wish I could have this kind of situation every month.. I need this kind of timee..

Kaskus Radio Lately..

Sama dengan kejadian yang menyerang kaskus forum.. mreka juga menyerang kaskus radio.. menyebabkan KR jd overbandwith.. adminnya di kasih warning dan harus membayar denda sejumlah uang..

Uang yang jumlahnya gak masuk akal itu di putuskan untuk di pending,, dan kaskus radio sedang mencari server baru untuk mengatasinya.. maka dengan demikian..

Kaskus radio akan vaccum selama kurang lebih satu minggu.. Kaskus web akan tetap bisa di buka, dan maish bisa chat di kaskus box hanya saja tidak akan ada streaming lagu..

sorry for this inconvinient..
Kami harap hal2 yang sama tidak akan terjadi kembali..
Dan semoga yang melakukan penyerangan insap.. -.-

I took of the mask..

I can’t hold it any longer.. My fake smile.. 2 yearss.. I’ve been faking most of my smile.. They could barely know what I feel inside me.. Nothing happened,, I just feel uneasy.. Whenener they asked me qws I just answer them with a short response.. I dunno why..

Usually,, no mather how sad I am,, I’ll try to smile.. today I just couldn’t stand it.. I feel better, finally I can let them know that I’m not as cheerful as they thought.. I’m not as strong as what they thought..

I tired of fake smiling.. I don’t wanna smile while my heart is crying.. I hope I can do it,, I dunno is it right or wrong.. I’m just tired..

virus drama queenn…

Kmaren ini gw lagi ada kerjaan.. ada sieh.. cuam ya biasa,, sindrome males ngerjain tugas.. Gw inget.. ada temen gw ngasih rekomendasi notnon pelem drama judulnya Why Why Love (Huan huan Ai) nah,, gw tontonlah tuh pelem.. BAGUSSSSS…… mike he sama kingonenya huiiii… sexeeehh booo… cakep gila tuh orang duaa…. nah trus gw cari2 ternyata mreka bertiga,, mike, king, sama rainie,, maen di pilem yang ssama juga sbelomnya,, judulnya Devil beside you..  Mreka bdua ganteng mannh,,!! si rainienya juga cakep abisss..!!!!

Nah,, skarang gw kesambet setan drama queen niehhh..!! demen banget nonton drama.. cuma gw lagi bingung,, mo nonton apaan.. banyakan gak ada gtu -.- nyari streaming dmana gw juga bingung ndiri.. hehe…

gw lagi kesengsem sama mike he sama kingone nieh.. gila tuh anak dua,,, kok ada yaa orang cakep gtu di duniaa… truss,,, sapa lagi yaa.. dolo gw demen sama wallace,, edc jugaa.. tapi ampir smua pelem EDC dah gw tonton.. jdnya gw lagi nyari pelem yang cengeng2 niehh.. kalo ada yang tauu kasi tau judulnya ke gw yaaa. yangg buaguuss…

nonton pelemnya jay chou yang judulnya secret juga bagus.. intial D apa lagii.. mantebhh maann..!! apa lagii yaaaa… AT the dolphin bay tetep the best sieh,, tapi gw gak bisa nemu lagi mo streaming dmana.. gw demennya pelem drama taiwan,, soalnya mandarin sama ceritanya cowonya juga cakep2,, kalo korea mah leukimia sama cancer smua -.- dah gtu conya klemar klemer smua gtuu so lenje…

ada rekomen gak nieh pelem apaan? gw bsok libur 3 hari.. mayan khan nonton co cakeppp..

kadang2 gw suka berday dream ria.. ngebayangin ada gak sieh orang seberuntung san chai yang bisa di taksir sama daoo ming se.. Juga si rainie bisa di taksir KIngone plus mike he juga.. gilaa itu dua makluk bisa lahir di dunia,, emaknya ngasih makan apa sieh,, kok anaknya bisa cakep2 gtu yaa..

heuheuheuheuheuheu…

makin aneh ajah gw,, namanya lagi ke virus.. hehehe..

The tears of the blues..

I watched the second half of the game.. I was so intens.. The score was 1-1.. I was hecka piss when most of chelsea’s shot hit the pole.. Drogba and lampard.. and how Terry save the goal.. It was so nice..

Penalty,, I always hate this,, it’s not skill but luck.. Chelsea lost this time.. they lost against the red.. I knew they’ve tried their best..

I was hella sad when I saw Terry cried most of the time after the match.. Everyone cheered him up,, I’m sure if I was there watching I would’ve cry too.. huwh..

The blues.. maybe not this year.. get it back next yearr…

yay for lampard,, for terry,, for ballack,, and for all the blues,, also all the fans of chelsea…
Today we are mourning,, tomorrow,, we’ll be back the blues will run on the field getting back the champions and we will always cheer for themm…

kaskus sementara..

kalo mo buka kaskus..!! bukanya

web1.kaskus.us

untuk sementara…

kaskus lately..

waahhh..

ternyata pas gw cek blog stats gw.. pada nnyari tau tttg kaskus..

yupp,, forum tercinta kita kaskus.us tewas dalam beberapa hari ini.. KMaren ada yang ngasih tw gw kalo kaskus di serang DDOS.. bener apa nggaknya gw gak tao,, tepatnya blon tau,, blon ada kesempetan nanya miminya co adminnya juga gi sibuk.. gw pasti nanya sama adminnya kok ASAP.. kalo dah ada info yang pastinya dr admin tentunya,, gw bakal post dsini

 

Second place girls doubles JV SCVAL’s tourney 2008

I cried after that match I was piss.. I was sad.. how could they win that game? how could we lost against them.. I gave a high fives to those people (our opponent) and I steped outside,, my tear came out from my eyes.. I couldn’t stand it.. My friend was just speechless standing around me.. I cried for about 2 minutes..

I put my glasses on and yeaa.. we started to talk.. an awkard conversation until chalisa asked us to go to jamba juice.. I stood and I walk into the gym to the blichers, passed our coach.. I said nothing.. we packed up our stuff.. I wanted to go ASAP from that place.. didn’t wanna hear they announced me as the second place.. didn’t wanna hear their name called as the first one.. my coach came and I said sorry,, she said that we did a great job,, at least we tried our best,, we didn’t give up.. We walked out (5 of us) to go to jamba juice.. on the way I was silent most of the time..  I kicked the door insted of push it,, my friend laughed they knew I was mad..

That intends game gave me a lot of lessons..
Last year,, I was proud to be in the second place,, this,, I wish I was the champion.. I wanna be the champion..

I dunno what should I do.. should I cry or should I smile..?!

anyway,, I’m thankful to God that I still be the second one..