Sweetest Guy..

I know that we are not suppose to believe in a fairy tale.. but what about drama??
Hahaha..
Oh well,, gw lagi nonton drama Taiwan, At The Dolphin Bay… Gw dah nonton nieh pelem berkali2.. pokoknya gw dah apal lah pelemnyaaa.. dan setiap gw nonton tuh pelem gw slalu nangis.. Like ALAWAYS…!!
Apa lagi pas adegan zerya dan tien bien kecil bepisahh… itu nangisss bombaayyyyyyy…….

Tapi gw demen banget sama nieh pelem whatsoever..
Gw demen banget sama Zerya di pelem ini..

Kalo ada cowo kyk dia exist di dunia.. wahh…. satuuuu ajahhh gw pengen ktemu..
Dia rela kehilangan jabatannya buat satu cewe yang bisa di bilang stanger.. wahh hebat abis.. trus dia super baee super clamm.. superr lahh pokoknyaa..!!!

Wah pas gw akhirnya nemu nieh pelem lagi gw hepi bangettt..!!

Apa iyaa cowo kyk gtu exist.. yang perfect,, flwless gtu.. Yang bisa tiba2 ada di depan u lagi somewhere.. creepy siehh.. yang pas u lagi super sedih dia bisa tau dan langsung nelpon u.. dan yang wahh sweet abis lahh..

OH welll.. kyknya gw kebanyakan nontin ginian dan kebanyakan say dreaming niehh..
tapi kalo kata pelem ini keep dreaming and keep expecting.. and it will come true..
haha..

mémoire..

Yes.. Badminton yang skarang lagi gw jalanin.. membantu banget proses menyibukan diri gw.. mencoba gak mikirin yang nggak2..

Tapi at the same time.. badminton juga yang bikin gw inget sama dia..

Slese game tadi.. biasanya he used to call me.. just to accompany me.. karena gw blom bole pulang sampe jem 6.. Tapi tadi gw ndiri dan baca2 buku.. and somewhat kept checkin on my phone as if he would call me.. He didn’t..

Ternyata badminton juga membantu gw makin merasa bersalah.. Stelah gw ktemu temen baru yang punya nama depan Maximilianus.. dan nama anaknya temen gw Maximillian yang sering2 di sebut maxi.. Which it was his nick name from me long long time ago..

Yayaya.. I guess he’s gone.. I just have to accept/believe/realize that he’s gone from my life.. my stoopid life..

He is one of the best thing ever happened in my life.. but I’m still hoping I could redo everything  and not having him as my best friend.. and I guess evrything would have be different.. It was his optimistic and my pesismistic that made this end up like this..
Even though it’s screwed.. and it’s messed up.. It was a beautiful mess.. and memories that I’ll never forget..

Confidence..

Udah lama nggak blogging.. Ys I’ve been soo busy lately..
My Junior year became harder in 2nd semes.. Or maybe it’s just me being lazier.. I dunno.. haha.. And I’ve been practicing badminton lately.. season started couple weeks ago.. and.. Thank God.. My body adapted pretty fast so I only had like 2 days of sore.. thanks to salonpass for the wamrth.. LOL.. and I’m applying for middle college program.. Which a program that let me go to de Anza for my sr year.. erhhmm.. yeaaa.. busy..

So today was our first game against other school.. Well.. it was a practice game for the Varsity.. My games went well.. Chalisa and I won both games against homestead and Newark.. erhmm yeaa.. It was a great thing winning two games in a day.. It boosted up my confidence.. I was a lil afraid going to varsity even tho.. I played for varsity several time.. In JV I used to win.. and I hate losing.. and I know being in Varsity means you need to be ready to face many other good players..

Badminton for me was 50% sports and 50% fun.. So.. It’s fun to be the winner… But in JV I don’t have that much challenge yes. I got bored.. and I finally I seriously made it in to Varsity and playing with a different partner..  Now that I’m confident hopefully I’ll help my team to get back our varsity victory..

I promise I’ll do better.. I miss playing on JV tho.. no pressure.. coz I know whatsoever I’ll win.. Oh well.. the season has started.. and let the games beginn..

Crappy Days..

Gw lagi sama ketuanya photo club gw.. stoopid HS kid.. -.-
Jadi di skola gw bakal ada jazz dance coming up this sat.. dan kita di mintai tolong bwt jd photographernya.. dan nanti yang di potoin bakal bayar kita dkk gtu..

The problems are…!!! kita gak punya skill n gear yet.. kalo skill mungkin some of us has.. tapi khan kalo moto gtu an gak asal jepret shutter.. gw pernah ngalamin moto di yang sdikit ‘professional’ gakl segampang yang gw kita dan gak sekedar mencet shutter doank..!! dan gear.. SIAPA AJAH YANG PUNYA DSLR????masa moto under lighting minim make lensa kit… apa gak ngeblur smua tuh poto.. plus we don’t have f’in’ studio equipment..!!!!!!!

dan diaa childishly and stoopidly nanya ke gw untuk beli lighting euipment yang harganya 180 dollar.. dan katanya kalo kita gak beli tuh benda2 kita gak di kasi moto.. gw bilang yaa.. fcuk themm lahh..!! gak moto ya gak moto.. emanknya yang punya acara dan butuh photographer cuma anak2 jazz doank.. lalu gw tanya.. emank kita punya brapa duid di azz kita.. taunya cuma $144.. trus gw yang wtf…!?!??! apa dia gak pernah ambil kelas bisnis yee?? ato dia faill di kelas bisnis???? contoh2 impulse buyer tuh..!!  lah iya kalo kita make profit kalo kagak?? tuh acara in 5 days.. kita punya plan juga kagak.. dasar orang bawang napsu dodol..

Dia bilang dia gak mao ngelewatin this opportunities.. gw bilang fcuk u lahhh.. opportunities.. mukee loo ruwettt… gara2 lo mikirin opportunities yang messed up satu club.. gw sampe enegggg jelasinnya.. sampe akhirnya gw bilang ya nanya ke advisorlahh.. dan Thank God advisornya bilang we couldn’t make it.. ya dia terserah kita mao beli ato nggaknya tapi itu emank sounds impossible..  akhirnya tuh ketua bawang dodol keluar dr kelas denagn BT.. emank gw peduli.. lagian tuh anak kyk baru punya duid mao di spend smua.. -.-

kalo ada yang pengen banget punya lighting set ya mungkin gw lebih pengen dr pd diee kalii yee.. secara gw dah take photography more seriously than her.. gw juga sering ngebayangin moto2 model di bawah lampu2.. tapi juga mikir pake otak kali sbelomm jalanin something..  jangan kyk anak SD punya duid langsung di blanjain.. Plus juga lighting set 180 dollar?? dapet lampu plus umbrella itu kyk apaan??? buset dahhh.. barang murah kok di percaya.. gw minta linknya gak di kasi2..

Gw sampe bilang ke temen gw kmaren.. either gw gilaa dan mreka mebli lighting setnya.. atao gw bakal sinting dan mreka gak dapet lightuing set nya juga… dan gw dah mayan sintigg jelasinn sampe mulut bebuusaaa.. akhirnya thank God banget yang atasan juga bilang nggak.. Gw bingung sama tuh bawang dodol.. gw jelasin sedetil2 dia kekeuh banget sama gw.. giliran advisor ngomong yang intinya sama kyk kata2 gw.. tuh dodol baru diem.. !@$#%&(@&%$^@*

Gw gakk akaaaaaaannnnn.. daftar jd officer lagi taon depan.. jd member santai ajah lah gw..  puyeng puyeng puyeng..
superrr beteee..