I heart..

I heart Rei, Rick, n Yudha coz the wish me to be happy the most..!!

The Wall..

It’s that wall again.. the wall that I’ve been trying to destroy these past few months.. and I guess I succeed..

But now,, I somehow keep making new one and even more walls than before.. huwh..

I can’t express it… all I can do is just hiding it..

Punishment..

I’ve been through a lot.. or at least I think I’ve been through a lot.. I’m tired.. I’m really tired..

Is this You Punishment for me God?? What did I do wrong??
Couple days a go I just heard something that upset me to death.. and today,, one of the things that I’m really afraid just happened..

Sometimes I just don’t get it.. Why am I here.. Why do I keep living.. Why do I have dreams??
And everyone seems to be against me too..

I can only Talk to You.. but If You are against me too,, then Whom should I talk to??
Whose shoulder should lean on?? Who would wipe my tears and tell me “You’ll be OK..!”

What did I do wrong?? Whom did I hurt?? I thought I was always nice to everyone.. I thought I ain’t selfish..
Then,, what is this?? what is this punishment for?? what did I do wrong??
Tell me..!! or else,, how would I knoww??

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How could you be..

How could you be so heartless??????

Or is it me yang heartless???

GWA GAK NGERTI………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damnnn,, kill me instead.. -.-

just wonderin’

Gw lagi liat2 fb trus ada cewe asia jadian sama bule gtu..

Gw lagi wonderin’ ajeh.. kalo gw jadian sama bule siapa yang mati duluan om gw apa bule nyaa.. buahahhahaha..
Kagak tau knape om gw kagak demen banget sama bule.. mao ce/co/tua/muda kagak ngerti dah knapa,, tapi emank kluarganya dia tuh yang tipe2nya stereotype gtu dah.. gw gak demen tuh yang gtu.. -.-

hahahaha.. tapi gw wonder ajeh ada gak sieh cowo yang cakepnya kyk ST berkeliaran di dunia lebih dr satu.. Slaen di stanford.. -.- buahahahhahaa..

Ahh geeloo jem 2 pagiii.. bukannya tidur malah bginian di pikirin.. buahahaha..

“Wake Me Up,, DJ CheL” is Back..!!!!

Only @ www.kaskusradio.com

Wednesday (WIB)
06:30 – 08:30 | Wake Me Up, DJ CheL..!!! – DJ Chel

If you’re in US it would be on Tuesday,, 04:30-06:30 pm

The DJ obviously would be me..!!! Don’t miss it..!!!! Newest song,, newest gossips,, crazy DJ..

-Morning Screamer..!!!!

blaaahhhh..

Kagak ada kerjaan stress juga…

Well bukannya kagak ada kerjaan sieh.. kagak ada yang di ajak ngomong tepatnya..
jem2 sgini temen2 gw yang di indo maish pada molor.. temen2 gw di US pada ngampuss..

Walo gw blom beresin kamar.. belom slese maksdnyaa.. gw dah minum 2 gelas juice..!!! KENYANG…!!!!! super kenyang.. I wonder kalo kekenyangan gara2 juice itu bisa bikin ndut gak yah.. hmm..

Eh juice nya enak lhoo..!! pake fresh strawberry + fresh kiwi + fresh banana + apple juice + strawberry yogurt..!!! sama ice sieh.. kagak pake gula..!!! enakkkkkk.. I love my self for being so healthy.. saking enaknya gw kagak mao masukin kulkas alhasil gwa abisin.. hauahuhauaa..

Mao beresin kamar,, beresin foto,, beresin lagu..!!!

OH YA..!! gw daah pasang jadwal.. This should be it.. kalo gw gak ubah2 lagi..
gw gw postnya di new entry ajeh dehh.. haha..

Jujur plus Curhat..

Stela gw liat2 poto2 gw dan dari pengalaman2 sebelomnya.. kayaknya kalo smua ini essay gw udah ada di paragraf2 trakhir dmana gw bentar lagi bakal bikin konklusi kalo gw tuh gak demen moto2 orang/human/people/model..
Mungkin gw bakal nyoba bikin beberapa paragraf lagi untuk nyari2 bahan potoan yang orang/event/model untuk wrap up konklusi gw..

Hmm.. gw sampe skarang lebih enjoy moto bunga/macro dan still life.. kayak gw bisa bikin2 cerita sendiri dengan gw yang ngatur semua settingnya.. gak butuh mood orang,, gak butuh nunggu expresi orang.. Gw lebih hepi untuk bisa ngatur mood ndiri,, ngatur kompo sendiri,, dkk..

tapi bagian curhatnya.. gw tuh kekeuh untuk bisa suka sama people photography kind of thing,, karena dari situlah elo bisa menghasil kan sesuatu (uang).. Contohnya moto event,, moto wedding,, prewed,, model photo keluarga.. tapi setiap gw mao ngedit poto kagak ada tuh gw rasa hepi editing..
Beda sama pas gw moto2 macro or still life,, gw bisa berjem2 di depan lighting set darurat gw cuma bwt figure out gmana gw bisa bikin still life gw ada ceritanya and at the same time bagus warnanya lalu pas ngeditnya bisa bisa lagi berpuluh2 menit gonta ganti warna..

Gw jadi bingung.. huwh.. tough.. tough.. gwa masih nyoba terus sieh.. blon slese nyobaa…. dan masih penasaran knapa gw gak demen moto orang.. knapa tiap moto orang gw gak bisa bikin suasananya.. whyyyyyy……………  gw jd stress dan puyeng ndiri haha..

Aniwae,, ya gtu dah lagi hmm.. I wouldn’t say dilemma sieh.. apa ya namanya.. hahaha.. kagak tau ahh..

btw,, my first wiken of my summer breaakk..!!! 9 more weeks to goo..!!