Punishment..

I’ve been through a lot.. or at least I think I’ve been through a lot.. I’m tired.. I’m really tired..

Is this You Punishment for me God?? What did I do wrong??
Couple days a go I just heard something that upset me to death.. and today,, one of the things that I’m really afraid just happened..

Sometimes I just don’t get it.. Why am I here.. Why do I keep living.. Why do I have dreams??
And everyone seems to be against me too..

I can only Talk to You.. but If You are against me too,, then Whom should I talk to??
Whose shoulder should lean on?? Who would wipe my tears and tell me “You’ll be OK..!”

What did I do wrong?? Whom did I hurt?? I thought I was always nice to everyone.. I thought I ain’t selfish..
Then,, what is this?? what is this punishment for?? what did I do wrong??
Tell me..!! or else,, how would I knoww??