Jujur plus Curhat..

Stela gw liat2 poto2 gw dan dari pengalaman2 sebelomnya.. kayaknya kalo smua ini essay gw udah ada di paragraf2 trakhir dmana gw bentar lagi bakal bikin konklusi kalo gw tuh gak demen moto2 orang/human/people/model..
Mungkin gw bakal nyoba bikin beberapa paragraf lagi untuk nyari2 bahan potoan yang orang/event/model untuk wrap up konklusi gw..

Hmm.. gw sampe skarang lebih enjoy moto bunga/macro dan still life.. kayak gw bisa bikin2 cerita sendiri dengan gw yang ngatur semua settingnya.. gak butuh mood orang,, gak butuh nunggu expresi orang.. Gw lebih hepi untuk bisa ngatur mood ndiri,, ngatur kompo sendiri,, dkk..

tapi bagian curhatnya.. gw tuh kekeuh untuk bisa suka sama people photography kind of thing,, karena dari situlah elo bisa menghasil kan sesuatu (uang).. Contohnya moto event,, moto wedding,, prewed,, model photo keluarga.. tapi setiap gw mao ngedit poto kagak ada tuh gw rasa hepi editing..
Beda sama pas gw moto2 macro or still life,, gw bisa berjem2 di depan lighting set darurat gw cuma bwt figure out gmana gw bisa bikin still life gw ada ceritanya and at the same time bagus warnanya lalu pas ngeditnya bisa bisa lagi berpuluh2 menit gonta ganti warna..

Gw jadi bingung.. huwh.. tough.. tough.. gwa masih nyoba terus sieh.. blon slese nyobaa…. dan masih penasaran knapa gw gak demen moto orang.. knapa tiap moto orang gw gak bisa bikin suasananya.. whyyyyyy……………  gw jd stress dan puyeng ndiri haha..

Aniwae,, ya gtu dah lagi hmm.. I wouldn’t say dilemma sieh.. apa ya namanya.. hahaha.. kagak tau ahh..

btw,, my first wiken of my summer breaakk..!!! 9 more weeks to goo..!!

“I enjoyed every part of it..”

I’ve been in US for like 3 years.. and I’ve also been to a lot of  parties..  Today was the funnest,, coolest,, just I was just happy being there..

It was the De Anza Graduation Party.. The ISO held it and they asked me to help ‘em to be a photographer.. Which I did and I had fun doing it..
Even though I just knew most of them today but they were hecka nice and I would say crazy..

I went there around 3pm and got there at 4pm It was in a hotel in Palo Alto.. I helped a bit decorating the hall.. which was fun.. til about 5 pm I came back home to change.. the girls had to dress up and do make up stuff.. and since I was the photographer I was wearing black pants and black shirt.. I thought I would feel awkward since all the girls would wear dress but it was ok.. haha..

When we got there at 6:30 ish the place was changed it’d been decorated and was so cool and elegant yet romantic.. Btw,, the theme was masqurade.. The was a cute photo booth where u can get ur picture taken and I stayed there for some times.. Then when the party start I was running around and trying to capture every moment..!!!

What’s so not fun?? hmm.. Holding 450D + 17-55 f2.8 + ext flash = Painfull..!!!! It was hella heavy.. for a while holding it was ok.. but after like 1 hour and more it was killing my left hand..!! and after sometimes It was hot in there coz I didn’t stop moving..
I knew that being a photographer in an Indonesian event would be tiring because everyone is narciss.. hahhahaa.. not offense.. Narcism isn’t a crime guys..!! lol.. again,, yet it was fun..

For me the most fun part maybe when they sing so many different songs and some of them are Indonesian.. it reminded me of my past with my besties..

Anyway,, Thanks for a great night.. hahahha..

website..

erhhmm.. hmm.. gw lagi planning mao mbikin or nyewa domain ndiri nieh buat galler gw..

Jadinya bisa www.terserahgw.com tapi yang njadi masalah adalah.. namanya apahh.. -.-
Most likely gw bakal nyewa dr FN.. soalnya itung2 donate ke salah satu website kesayangan.. 70 dollar staon dah dapet template.. secara gw mah gaptek gw pake yang ada template ajeh mah dah puas kok.. hehehe..

Pake nama apaaa yaaaaaaaaaaa….

Crappy Days..

Gw lagi sama ketuanya photo club gw.. stoopid HS kid.. -.-
Jadi di skola gw bakal ada jazz dance coming up this sat.. dan kita di mintai tolong bwt jd photographernya.. dan nanti yang di potoin bakal bayar kita dkk gtu..

The problems are…!!! kita gak punya skill n gear yet.. kalo skill mungkin some of us has.. tapi khan kalo moto gtu an gak asal jepret shutter.. gw pernah ngalamin moto di yang sdikit ‘professional’ gakl segampang yang gw kita dan gak sekedar mencet shutter doank..!! dan gear.. SIAPA AJAH YANG PUNYA DSLR????masa moto under lighting minim make lensa kit… apa gak ngeblur smua tuh poto.. plus we don’t have f’in’ studio equipment..!!!!!!!

dan diaa childishly and stoopidly nanya ke gw untuk beli lighting euipment yang harganya 180 dollar.. dan katanya kalo kita gak beli tuh benda2 kita gak di kasi moto.. gw bilang yaa.. fcuk themm lahh..!! gak moto ya gak moto.. emanknya yang punya acara dan butuh photographer cuma anak2 jazz doank.. lalu gw tanya.. emank kita punya brapa duid di azz kita.. taunya cuma $144.. trus gw yang wtf…!?!??! apa dia gak pernah ambil kelas bisnis yee?? ato dia faill di kelas bisnis???? contoh2 impulse buyer tuh..!!  lah iya kalo kita make profit kalo kagak?? tuh acara in 5 days.. kita punya plan juga kagak.. dasar orang bawang napsu dodol..

Dia bilang dia gak mao ngelewatin this opportunities.. gw bilang fcuk u lahhh.. opportunities.. mukee loo ruwettt… gara2 lo mikirin opportunities yang messed up satu club.. gw sampe enegggg jelasinnya.. sampe akhirnya gw bilang ya nanya ke advisorlahh.. dan Thank God advisornya bilang we couldn’t make it.. ya dia terserah kita mao beli ato nggaknya tapi itu emank sounds impossible..  akhirnya tuh ketua bawang dodol keluar dr kelas denagn BT.. emank gw peduli.. lagian tuh anak kyk baru punya duid mao di spend smua.. -.-

kalo ada yang pengen banget punya lighting set ya mungkin gw lebih pengen dr pd diee kalii yee.. secara gw dah take photography more seriously than her.. gw juga sering ngebayangin moto2 model di bawah lampu2.. tapi juga mikir pake otak kali sbelomm jalanin something..  jangan kyk anak SD punya duid langsung di blanjain.. Plus juga lighting set 180 dollar?? dapet lampu plus umbrella itu kyk apaan??? buset dahhh.. barang murah kok di percaya.. gw minta linknya gak di kasi2..

Gw sampe bilang ke temen gw kmaren.. either gw gilaa dan mreka mebli lighting setnya.. atao gw bakal sinting dan mreka gak dapet lightuing set nya juga… dan gw dah mayan sintigg jelasinn sampe mulut bebuusaaa.. akhirnya thank God banget yang atasan juga bilang nggak.. Gw bingung sama tuh bawang dodol.. gw jelasin sedetil2 dia kekeuh banget sama gw.. giliran advisor ngomong yang intinya sama kyk kata2 gw.. tuh dodol baru diem.. !@$#%&(@&%$^@*

Gw gakk akaaaaaaannnnn.. daftar jd officer lagi taon depan.. jd member santai ajah lah gw..  puyeng puyeng puyeng..
superrr beteee..

cape.. cape..

Capee… walaoo saia sudah menggalakan untuk berjuangg terosssss..
Tapi mata saia sudah merah beraer lagii.. kayak abis nangis2 nonton telenopelaaaaaaa……..

abis ngedit beberapa photo di photoshop. di temenin lagu2,, green tea,, n lollypop.. ahuahah…

skarang mata gw dah capeeeeeeeeee.. perrrihhhhhh……………..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh…
skarang mesti ngerjain Pr math -.-

White Roses Blast..

It’s been a while after the last time somebody gave me white rose(s).. hmm.. last Vday someone I dunno (no card,, no name) gave a stalk of red rose..

Last saturday,, on my b’day I got this beautiful flower.. Lilies and white roses in one vas.. It was prettty.. and smells really good..

Pretty,, huh??? yeaa.. someone who knows that I love white roses gave me this on my bday.. and I was perfectly surprised me..

It’s Zi… OMG.. lol.. I couldn’t stop smiling when I got that
pretty flowers..

And what my friends gave me.. A handle of white roses.. I dunno why everybody know that.. well,, my friends,, I know that Lavin was the head of everything.. giving me white roses.. She made everyone know that I like white roses.. haha.. Aniwae,,, it doesn’t matter..

Waaiitt.. lemme post the other white roses..

Look at the other pretty onee…

I took that picture in front of my house,, which there are grasses.. And.. I lovee itt…

They were all pretty.. haha.. the fact that they were all white roses they are pretty.. if they were other flower probably they weren’t that pretty.. LOL..

Just kidding.. I love all flower,, but what I love the most is roses,, especially white roses..

Ok..!! another pretty white roses photo that I took and digital edited is this one down here.. That high key flower is one of my master piece..!!! lol.. I just love it so much..

Lovely,, huh???

hahaha.. Do you think so?? hmm.. I think so..!! :p

All Photos were taken by Michelle
camera: Canon Rebel XSi & Canon Powershot SD1000

Me and The Photography Club..

I thought I was going to be all fun.. but guess what..!? sebelom semua fun itu.. adanya capeeeeee….
Tomorrow will be our first meeting.. hmm.. Thank God I don’t have to give any speech.. After a long weeekk.. we finally kinda ready to start our new yearr..

I’m trying to set the photography lesson,, which I’m just setting it up,, not be the one who teach them :p Also,, thank God again they like my T-shirt design.. hmm.. I’ve been working pretty well with the president so far.. I guess being a Vice Pres is just the best.. lol.. you have something to do,, but then you are not the one who’s responsible.. so. it’s just fun..

Aniwae.. It’s been pretty fun.. stela kmaren moto2 anak2 water polo.. juga barusan nyoba moto anak2 football tapi gatot alias gagal totall.. *btwmm ini post ini bahasa campur aduk abis* karena lensa kit imut saia gak bisa zoom jau2 -.- dan gw lebi merhatiin gem nya dr pd moto2.. hueekkeke.. lalu moto2 anak cheer leader hari ini,, dmana gw juga mesti jagain booth photo club,, bwt promosi2.. basically,, gw cuma promosi ke satu orang sisanya,, bdiri di balik meja,, megang2 dslr,, khan namanya photo club,, mesti ada kamera donk.. sisanya yang promosi si president.. heuekekke.. scara inggeris dia jau lebih indah dr saia,, gw serem salah ngomong..

And guess what.. Since the club room was locked. .we couldn’t get the club portfolio.. Thank God again I brought my matted pictures,, the one that I submitted for contest.. the paper clip thingy,, then the lil sun flower and the dancer.. and It was really nice,, hearing the comments form all the people.. even though,, what they said was just “cool”,, “how did you do that?”, or like “pretty” It was just nice to hear that.. I mean.. mann,, it was taken by mee.. and they were complimenting my pictures.. it was just awesome.. I became some what more confindence.. ahahaha..

yeaa.. hopefully it will turn good and fun.. and yeaa.. I’m some what excited.. :p

I Finally Bought a Digital SLR Camera

Having something that you really want and finally having it, it is one of the greatest pleasures. But, getting something that you really want with effort and a lot of struggle it is even greater.

October 2006, I met my elementary school friend on friendster.com. It is a site that is similar to facebook and myspace. His name is Karol, he was surprise looking at the changes in me, he said I changed a lot and he told our other elementary school friend about me. His name is Piendhy, he likes photography and I was getting closer to him. We found out that we get a long with each other. Later, He was someone special for me, he introduced me to a website named fotografer.net (fotografer means photographer in English). I love to see photos and moments that are captured by camera. Something happened between me and Hans we do not really hang out anymore but I thanked him for showing me this new beautiful world.

October 2006 – June 2007, I have learned a lot about the basic theory of photography. I searched a lot about photography and famous photographers. I have seen many great photographs. July 2007 I bought my first camera it is the Canon Powershot SD1000, the thing that I treasured until now. If you search for it in internet you will see a small camera that looks so ordinary but it does a fabulous job. I finally see by my eyes the beautiful things behind the view finder. I also finally feel how it feels to move around get a good angle, composition, and exposure then finally press the shutter button. I know that I found something that I love and I have passion in. I joined Lynbrook High School Photography Club which I won several photo contests. I was really happy. I told my mom about it but then she did not happy at all. She was concern why do I like photography. I was really upset she let me down. She did not support something that I really like.

January 2008, I started to find a photographer friends so then I can learn a lot more and get critic and comments about my photograph. I am one of the members in the largest Indonesian online community. I went to the photography forum that they have and I have meet a lot of nice and pro photographer. Since then I have learn a lot, they help me nicely. At this point I realized that to get a good photograph is not about the gear or the camera that you use but it is about the person behind the camera. I have found my new world; I know what to do and what I want to do. I told my mom that I have a passion in photography. I wan to go to a higher level which is a Digital Single Lens Reflect (DSLR) camera. She disagrees; she thinks photography is a useless and expensive hobby. I was upset and down. I knew that she could not make me change my mind. I think that I was old enough to think and choose what I think right. For me, even though photography is an expensive hobby but I can explore the art and finding my own art. I decided not to give up. I saved my money for the camera and thinking to get a job.

April 2008, my friend was about to throw away her SLR camera. The analog or film SLR camera, she thought the camera was broken and I asked her if I could see it. She said if I could fix it, I can have it. I went to the store and the problem was just on the lens which was really dirty and I just need to get a new lens. I was so extremely excited using the camera. I got a problem, using that camera you will need to print out you picture and scan it in order to get your photos in you computer, which you will need much more money to pay for t he printing and scanner to scan it before doing the digital editing. I did not really use the camera. It was way too much money to pay for the printing.

August 2008, I found out that I will get $500 cash from my friend’s car insurance. In March 2007 I got a car accident and that $500 I got for the treatment. But then I am so excited to buy a DSLR camera. My aunt let me buy the camera she will add another bucks for me and I have my own saving for about $120. $720 is enough to buy a high end Canon DSLR camera that I had been wondering such as Canon EOS Rebel Xsi. I am happy. The day when my aunt let me buy the DSLR was the best day throughout the year. I cried that day; I was really happy to the point where whatever I did that day my tears keep coming out from my eyes. I was just really happy.

September 2008, I finally bought the DSLR on September 7^th. I bought that from amazon.com. Before I actually buy the camera I have already buy the accessories such as tripod, camera bag, extra battery, lens filter and some more. I was really excited but I still have a problem. My mom did not know yet about me buying the camera. I did not know what will she say but I bought that already. On facebook my best friend put her picture that was taken by me using pocket camera long time a go. She dressed up nicely for the photo shoot and we went to Stanford to take pictures there. Somebody commented on her photos and he interested in my photographs. He was asking if I can do a guy photo shoot, and he is willing to pay me for that. I was happy, happy as I can be. The next day I told my mom about my camera and the guy who is willing to pay me for my photograph. Guess what did she say? She was okay with me buying the camera. She started to support me. I have proved that I can do something good and what I have chosen was not wrong.

Thanks to God for everything
Thanks to him who introduced me to this beautiful world,
Thanks to them who supports me in photography,
Thanks to them who cheers me up whenever I’m down,
Thanks to them who helps me a lot in photography,
Thanks to him who shows his love to me and surprised me with his lens hood and flash diffuser..

Canon EF 50mm f/1.8

Finally… Afterr a long.. longg.. longg time thinking about what lens should I buy,, do I really need that lens ans etc.. I decided to buy canon EF 50mm f/1.8 for my EOS 100..

A dilemma.. lol.. If I buy it in amazon,, it will cost more money but I can get that lens in 3-5 days.. If I buy it in Indo,, I’ll get it in a month.. the diff is only about 13 dollars.. so,, I decided to buy in here.. I get warranty anywayy..

That lens recomended by a lot of my friends,, it’s pretty cheap but it’s good…

special thanks to Ricky and Rinza for the testimonials of this lens that help me a lot..
and also to ‘om’ imamm,, thanks for helping me finding the link where to buy this camera the cheapest,, also the refence for each seller/store..
to my brrrooooo,, kyokoo andre,, thanks for the amazonn linkk..!!! funny story is that he was telling me that he wants to buy this lens,, and I was like “Dude,, this is the one that I was talkin about.. The one that I’m thiking to buy..” yeaa.. he was the one that give me amazon link..
to my mom,, who finally agreesss…
also,, thank God I finally made a decision.. haha..

I’m excitedddddddd…..

Memory Card Error…

 just realized that I didn’t write about something bad that my camera and that made me pretty mad.. Beside shopping I was going to have a nice hunting time in the at the flea market.. I’ve brought my camera put in the memory card.. I’ve three crads and that is the only card with noting in it.. The rest has something in it.. anyway.. I took ONe.. againn ONE picture and when I was trying to take another one it said memory card error.. @#$%^*

Man,, I though I was goin’ to have a nice hunting time but it turned out to a bad hunting time with no MMC at all.. ohh geezz,, There were a lot of cool stuff I could’ve take todayy.. I was pretty upset that time.. I tried to make it work by taking it out etc but it didn’t workk..

aniwae,, yeaa.. I dunno if next month I will come to the flea market again.. since it only held once a month and we need to come in the morning,, which is a bit impossible for me to ruin my morning..

Oh well.. I hope that would paid with uhmm maybe another downtown trip..!? orr… man.. did I also tell you about the fireworks on 4th of July yesterdayy??
I could see the fireworks in  front of my house but then there are a lot of trees in my neighboorhood,, and it makes me couldn’t get the whole fireworks.. Especially with my pocket camera.. it was just really hard.. I tried and from hundred and hundred photos that I took last night there only 4 good photos.. Evenn the good one have silhouettes of trees in it..

argghh.. what a sad week..