Pergi..

Tak Inginku dsini,
Namun ku tak berdaya..

Andai ku bisa,
Arungi samudra,
Daki gunung & lembah,
Lewati halangan & rintangan,
Hanya Untuknya..

Ku ingin pergi,
Menggapai mimpi,
Tentang aku & dia..

Monday, 8/3/09
OTW to SJC on the plane..

to Mr. R
Gomenasai, Hopefully our dream’s still the same..

Mawar Marun..

Ada yang ngirimin gw mawar di kelas math.. gw gak tau siapa..
kartunya gak ada nama pengirimnya.. cuma ada tulisan bwt gw dan tulisan “here is a rose”

Mawar kedua setelah taon kmaren juga ada seseorang yang ngasih ke gw.. Dan sampe skarang pun gw masih gak tau siapa yang ngasih mawar Valentine taon kmaren.. taon ini gw dapet another mawar merah..

Siapa yang ngasih??? kenapa dia kagak show up?? tulis nama ato at least inisial.. Gw cuma mao thank that person..
Dan gw juga have no idea siapa yang ngasih.. seriously have no clue.. ><

Gw demen mawarr.. mawar emank bunga paporit gw… dan walopun yang paling gw suka itu mawar putih.. tapi kalo sampe ada yang ngasih gw setangkai mawar merah itu surprise banget..
tapiii siaaapaahhhhh…………………..

Whoever you are.. thanks for the red rose..

White Roses Blast..

It’s been a while after the last time somebody gave me white rose(s).. hmm.. last Vday someone I dunno (no card,, no name) gave a stalk of red rose..

Last saturday,, on my b’day I got this beautiful flower.. Lilies and white roses in one vas.. It was prettty.. and smells really good..

Pretty,, huh??? yeaa.. someone who knows that I love white roses gave me this on my bday.. and I was perfectly surprised me..

It’s Zi… OMG.. lol.. I couldn’t stop smiling when I got that
pretty flowers..

And what my friends gave me.. A handle of white roses.. I dunno why everybody know that.. well,, my friends,, I know that Lavin was the head of everything.. giving me white roses.. She made everyone know that I like white roses.. haha.. Aniwae,,, it doesn’t matter..

Waaiitt.. lemme post the other white roses..

Look at the other pretty onee…

I took that picture in front of my house,, which there are grasses.. And.. I lovee itt…

They were all pretty.. haha.. the fact that they were all white roses they are pretty.. if they were other flower probably they weren’t that pretty.. LOL..

Just kidding.. I love all flower,, but what I love the most is roses,, especially white roses..

Ok..!! another pretty white roses photo that I took and digital edited is this one down here.. That high key flower is one of my master piece..!!! lol.. I just love it so much..

Lovely,, huh???

hahaha.. Do you think so?? hmm.. I think so..!! :p

All Photos were taken by Michelle
camera: Canon Rebel XSi & Canon Powershot SD1000

Mayday; I’m in love by D’cinnamon

I can’t eat , even I want to
I can’t sleep, what’s wrong with me?!
I can’t think, …..[maybe you’re in love]
Yes, maybe I’m in love…!

I can’t tap, even I want to
I can’t slide, what’s wrong with me?!
I can’t strum, …..[maybe you’re in love]
Yes, maybe I’m in love…!

Mayday!.. Mayday!..  I need some help!!!
It feels burning inside of my head!
Don’t look at me, don’t stare at me, & don’t laugh
Please stop me ’cause I think I’m in love!

I can’t move, even I want to
Can’t hide it,….. [what’s wrong with you?]
Couldn’t wait no longer! No!! ,….. [maybe you’re in love]
Yes I think I’m in love!

Mayday!.. Mayday!..  I need some help!!!
It feels burning inside of my head!
Don’t look at me, don’t stare at me, & don’t laugh
Please stop me ’cause I think I’m in love!

My mind is full of you!!
Get out! Get out of my head!!
But wait… I don’t really mean it
Come back! Come Back!
God!!! What’s wrong with me?!?

Mayday!.. Mayday!..  I need some help!!!
It feels burning inside of my head!
Don’t look at me, don’t stare at me, & don’t laugh
Please stop me ’cause I think I’m in love!

Funny Worried Himm..

me: Aduh,, ada temennya tante di depan nieh.. tapi kok suaranya rame banget di depan..
him: oh.. ada temen tante…
me: iya2,, kayaknya ada anaknya deh -.- Dolo aku pernah di jodoh2in sama anaknya.. males abis..
him: yah kok gtu? maksudnya?
me: iyaa,, anaknya di bilangin kalo anaknya tuh gini gitu..
me: gak pernah ketemu anaknya sieh,, tapi kalo kedepan mungkin ktemu.. Ke depan dolo deh yaa..
him: Awas yaa.. kamu jangan naksir anak temennya tante..
me: Lah,, kalo naksir emangnya knapa?

LOL.. hahaa.. si centill.. Tenang ajeh kali yeee.. emangnya jamannya Siti Nurbaya di jodoh2in.. hahaha,, lagian,, masa ajah bisa suka sama orang baru langsung ktemu.. I don’t belive in love at a first sight..
dan toh ternyata kagak ada anaknya di depan.. Ada bokapnya doank sama emaknya.. heuheuhuehuee..

Mayan seru sieh ngobrol sama mreka.. ya,, ngobrol ttg banyak hal.. Namanya kita anak muda punya banyak pengetahuan baru juga,, makanya apa yang kita pikirin beda sama mreka,, kalo di bantah apa yang mreka omongin gak enak.. tdnya sedikit berdebat,, tapi sudah lah,, akupun gak tau apa yang aku ngomongin bener apa salah,, khan cuma denger dr orang doank.. heuheuhe..
Tapi alhasil.. gak ngerjain tugas dah -.-

Love Story..

A lot of things in my mind that I really want to say.. Not just to one person but to several of my closest people around me..

To Mr. R..

I know that sorry and thank you aren’t enough..
I really am sorry for everything that I’ve done.. I’m sorry for me being selfish,, and for me hurting you more than a time.. I honestly don’t want this to happen.. Thank you for your call yesterday,, thanks for cheering me up.. Thanks for your understanding.. That means a lot for me..
Thank you for everything that you’ve done.. being with me.. for cheering me up whenever I’m down,, for always making me smile when I’m sad.. for just being there for me.. that means a lot..
I know that I hurt you,, again… you will always be my best friend..

To my other best friends (Yudha,, Rick,, Sisca,, and Gisel)

I know that I’ve never meet Sisca and GIsel… I would love to see you guys.. Thanks for all the suggestion and advices that you gave to me.. Maybe what I think is not the same with what you guys think..
Thank you for respecting my thought and keep supporting me no matter what.. I miss you guys..

To Zi..

Thanks for being with me.. Thanks for making me smile and always reminding me to eat.. haha..
I honestly still don’t know what to say but.. Welcome to my sweet,, sour,, spicy,, bitter life..

In Love..

I think I’m in love..

I’m in love with Chris Cendana,, I mean not him… lol.. but his voice..!!!!
So,, go on youtube now,, tight away and search for Chris Cendana or just go right away to youtube.com/ccendana..

So,, The first time I heard his voice was like couple months a go.. He was singing I’m Yours by Jason Mraz and I’m so in love with his voice,, the way he plays his guitar and his characteristic.. I started to listen and watch his video.. He is blessed by such a greaattttt voiceee..

Last week,, he was on blogtv and I was in the main room,, requested couple songs such as,, I’m Yours,, Save me by Josh Verdes,, and many moree.. and he sang it.. he read couple line that I wrote which he made my dayyy… and yeaaa.. He is just tremendously cool..

Last night,, I listened to his original.. A song that he wrote in 2006 in of the coffee shop in West Virginia.. and again,, I’m in love with his voice.. The song is just cooll.. I love the beatt.. the instruments that he used.. He is just so creative..!! Look at his expression while he is playing the guitar and it is when his coolness shows up the most… haha.. The lyrics..!!!!!!!!!! The lyrics is sooo touchyyy… It’s Velvet Fingertips..

Check this out..!!

Velvet Fingertips
by Chris Cendana
Copyright 2006 Chris Cendana

close your eyes
tell me what you see
is it you alone standing
awaiting patiently

you know i love to guess what you’re thinking
it’s fun, don’t you agree?
to try to play a psychic
to such a mystery

when i close my eyes
i fly above the trees
so i can watch the sun
crash into the sea
running through the clouds
breathing in the breeze
oh, how it soothes

(chorus)
if you only knew
what you do to me
or feel what i can do
or see what i can see
i feel i’m next to you
when i fall asleep
when i think of you

don’t try to use a knife
to get inside my head
cause if you truly loved me
you’d care if i was dead

you know i love to joke
if i didn’t
i would not be me
but if you were a book
who know what i could read

cause when i close my eyes
i can feel your lips
kiss the perfect parts
like velvet fingertips
relaxing on the sand
the wine we have to sip
is so very sweet

(chorus)
(soloing)

instruments used in this video:
classical guitar
a guiro
a set of car keys

Listen to it..
and tell me if you are in love too…

Chris Cendana,, FTW..!!!!!

Bule..

Dolo,, gw punya teori kalo bule tuh kalo gak masuk TV gak ada yang cakep.. Karena gw tinggal di amerika dmana dsini tuh justru khan rumahnya orang2 bule.. gw gak nemu bule yang kayak di TV,, yang cakep,, tinggi,, atletic.. Kalo pun ada ngepas.. huehuehuehue.. Juga gak kayak di pelem2 kalo bule tuh nice yang suka nolong,, tapi mreka tuh lebi suka ngegroup sama sesama bule..

Hari ini gw mau menghapus teori itu.. I was wrong.. Hari ini gw ktemu bule yang cakep.. Ya walopun dia gak secakep Chris Evans (human torch) tapinya bule itu cukup menarik perhatian gw.. Dia ada di kelas food and nutrition gw.. Gw gak tau sapa namanya ato dia angkatan mana.. POkoknya dia cukup nice dan punya senyum pepsodentt yangg beeuuhhh.. bisa membekukan dunia.. Kalo si Chris evans tuh panas karena emang dia human torch nah bule ini dia kyk sub zero yang punya pukulan membekukan.. *sub zero khan yang nonjok jd es??*

Awalnya tuh gw mo drop tuh kelas,, karena males banget.. gw khan gak ada bakat di food and nutrition dan juga gak tertarik sama skali.. Gw pikir,, liat dolo lah sampe jumat,, gw mo nyari tau apa yang menarik yang ada di tuh kelas supaya gw stay.. Untuk pelajaran sieh gak ada yang menarik,, masakan yang akan di masak juga gak gtu menarik.. TAPI,, sampe tadi pas lagi bersih2 kitchen dan gw lagi ngeganti drawer mat ato alas drawer,, anak segroup gw nanya kok gw tau caranya dll.. nah sang bule itu jawab “Yea.. that’s how you do it,, look at her..!” sambil nunjuk ke gw.. Lalu gw yang masih konsen sama kerjaan gw ya biasa ajah.. trus dia bilang lagih yang intinya katanya gw bakal jd cewe2 yang masuk dapur gtulah,, pinter masak dll.. Nah gw yang gak pernah di puji sama hal2 dapur mikir aneh2.. hauhauhauhaua.. ya gw di puji bisa masuk dapur ya seneng.. Toh gw benernya khan bukan dapur type of a girll.. ya sudah,, itu slese.. pas gw beres sama kerjaan gw gw mulai mencari anak itu yang mana sieh.. lalu,, gw cuma liat dia anak yang paek baju abu2..

Gw mulai membaca textbook gw,, nulis note.. dan pas gurunya nyuruh duduk.. anak group gw yang namanya Rowie tuh gak duduk,, dia mestinya duduk tepat di seberang gw *mejanya kotak* nah,, lalu tiba pas gw baca dan nengok ke atas ada tuh bule dah duduk dan gi baca,, gw kaget donk ya,, Lalu dia liat gw juga.. terjadilah eye contact.. LOL.. nahh ya uda mulai lah ngobrol.. temen gw yang namanya lukas bilang dia laper dan jd ngomongin burrito di chipotle dan kita ber4 sama ayako jd ngobrol dehh.. ngomongin makanan,, toh itu emang food class khan.. Dan pas dia senyummm arghhhhhhh……. dunia runtuh… dan gara2 dialah gw gak mao ngedrop kelas food gw.. Itung2 gw blajar masak juga :p

setelah kelas itu slese gw langsung berdoa dan berharap supaya nanti kalo pindah grup,, dia akan segrup sama gw,, ato kalo perlu si rowie kribo dituker sama dia ajah..

haha.. Gw tau kalo gw gak punya prasaan apa2 sama dia.. gw cuma mao kenal sama dia ajah.. asal gw bisa kenal dia dan dia kenal gw itu dah lebih dr cukup kok.. Knapa gw gak bole punya prasaan apa2.. :p huehekekekke.. kalo sampe gw punya hubungan sama bule hidup gw gak akan bahagia.. hoakakakkaka.. soalnya om sama tante gw tuh masih old minded gtu deh,, dia gak bisa cross culture gtu dahh.. padahal dia gak tau sebagaimana anak gw bakal cakepnya nanti kalo gw jadi sama bule.. LOL.. tapi yaa bgitulah.. gak akan dapet restu.. Mungkin dari pada gw jadi sama bule mreka bakal lebih rela beliin gw kamera yang mahal abis sekelas 1DsMkIII… haha..

Penantian Sang Putri

Tatapan matamu,
membius anganku
Senyumanmu,
membekukan aliran darahku

Aku yang selalu mengingatmu,
membayangkan hari-hari indah kita bersama..
Aku yang takkan melupakanmu,
Pangeran yang kunanti di pintu hati..

aku termenung,
sesaat mengintip ke jendela,
hanya harapan yang ku punya,
harapanku akan hadirnya dirimu..

Entah apa salahku.
engkau tak kunjung datang,
tak terasa,
air mata menetes dari pelupuk matku

Hari-hariku
hanya penuh penantian
akan dirimu,
pangeran hatiku..

-CheL-

me: Tidurrr…

Rei: haloo..
me: kok kamu blon tidur?
Rei: sapa nieh?
me: pacar..!! suara cewe ndiri  kok ngenalin..
Rei: bukannya pacarku mestinya jem sgini dah tidur ya?
me: lagi ngeronda..
rei: Chel.. chell.. ngibulin orang kira2 donk.. khan aku denger suara kamu dah sampe bosen,, masa iye bisa ketipu..
chel: huuu.. gak seruu..
Rei: dodoooll ahhh..
chel: weeekkk.. tetep ajah mesti tidur.. :p
Rick: woiii.. kok Rei doank sieh yang dsuru tidur..
chel: woiii anak kudaa,, ngapain lo jem sgini ngumpul2?
rick, rei, yudha: *ngakak*
chel: yah.. curangg… kapan kita bisa ngumpul ber4 lagi..
rick: pulang makanya..
chel: ahh knapa elo ajeh yang gak ksini..?
rick: khan gw mo nemenin rei ke bali..
chel: what..!?! elo bakal ke bali juga?  hombreng lo dasarr..
rick: dah ahh gw maen dolo..
chel: gihh..
rei: 2 hari lagi aku  ke bali..
chel: gak pergi di bahas -.- btw,, emank ricky ikut?
rick: *ngakak*
chel: sialaann lo rick,, ngibulin gw..
rei: gmane kmaren ke dokter?
chel: nothing’s wrong..
rei: anehh..
chel: gak tau lah… gak ngerti juga.. jem 3 pagi ngumpul di rumah sapa?
rei: rumahku lahh.. dmane lagi..
chel: huahahhaha.. salam bwt nyokap ya..  dah lama banget gak ngomong sama dia..
rei: iya tuh di cariin.. katanya kalo telpon/chatting dia titip salam..
chel: salam balik,, nanti siang2 di indo coba di telpon dahh..
rei: dia nanya,, kapan balik?
chel: wahh.. gak usa nanya..  masih lama itu mah..
rei: iyaa nieh,, banyak yang ngangenin kamu lhoo dsini..
chel: really?
rei: iya donk.. soalnya rendang mama,, kalo kamu yang bantuin masak itu rasanya laen,, lebi enakk..
chel: hoakakakka.. itu khan pake kringet gw.. makanya rasanya laen..
rei: yang penting enakk..
chel: kangen rendangnya tante..
and so onn..

hoaa..

anak itu bikin gw kangen rendang buatan nyokapnya.. entah kapan terakhir kali gw makan rendang yang enak seenak itu.. enak banget mreka ngumpul ber4 pasti lagi maen winning eleven.. walo gw memang slalu kalah dr mreka paling nggak khan gw bisa maen.. gak parah2 amed lahh..

gw kangen sumpa sama sahabat2 gw di indo.. huhuhu.. gila2ann bareng.. kangen azehh.. yang gw penasaran banget mah pengen liat gigi,, pacarnya yudha.. man.. yudha punya pacar tuh dah kyk miracle bwt gw.. tapi gw skaligus juga happy banget.. akhirnya our high quality jomblo yang konon walo miss Indonesia lewat juga dia gak peduli,, akhirnya punya seseorang yang di cintaa..

tadinya gw pengen bikin sekilas ttg mreka tapi anak2 itu banci tampil smua.. pdnya di depan orang yang di kenal smua.. kalo gw critain dsini bisa di maki2 gw.. tapi bisa diliat ajeh yee.. yudha itu mr cool pendiemm smua.. sedangkan ricky mah,, kagak dia mirip2 sama rei gtu pencinta wanita.. lol… sama gilanya,, tapi gw paling deket sama bung rei ntu.. entah knapa.. tapi gw sayang sama mreka smua.. huhuhu..

akuu kangenn mrekaa…