My S.E.N.I.O.R yearr..

I have been wanting to write this since last week.. but finally I got the chance to do it..
At last,, I’m in my very very very last year of my high school.. I’d been dreaming of this year since I stepped on my school for the first time.. Yes,, that’s how I really hate school.. I want to get over it as soon as possible.. Thank God I’m finally here chillin with all the seniors and laughing at the underclassmen..

I thought my last year of high school was going to be boring and loongggg.. I was wrong, when I saw my official schedule I knew I would had a blast year in here.. Even I might not want to graduate..
I hve the coolest teachers I could ask for… They are cool… like seriouslyy coooll..

I don’t have first period,, which I’m really glad of..

My second period,, my contemp lit class with Mr. T*** He is the besttttt..!!! he is funny and crazy,, when we were yawning and sleepy and ready to die behind our articles,, he makes us dance.. Dance,, for reall.. not just stand up and smillin lookin at him.. but danced..!!!! he has music,, his class is full of music with made his class more fun..

My third period,, government class… when I knew I got Mr. B*** I was likee.. whoooppppp…….. that’s the phelps guy..!!! He look a lot a like Michael Phepls.. yes the swimmer..!! he was friggin tall and looks like phelps.. I’m a fan of phelps so he’s cool.. He is a new and young teacher which I love because he isn’t boring.. he is funny and talk like they way we talk with all the slanks and stuffs..

My forth period,, US History.. well,, the teacher is ok.. he is nice.. he is really nice,, and I get to be in the same class with some of my besties… and I love history too… so I know it’s gonna be a fun class..

My fifth period,, My math class.. well I didn’t change my math class to pre calc.. I took stats instead.. it was a big mistake but when I knew I got to be in Mr B’s class it was all good. he is easy well.. and fun.. hahaha.. other stats teacher make the student draw graphs but he didn’t he lets us copy paste it and print it.. pretty much easy and nice.. also he’s hella funny… like hellaa..

Yes,, I pretty much have lots of fun this year.. I’m sure I will miss this year so much later on..  I thank God I passed cahsee and don’t have to take it again.. not afraid of not getting any college coz I’m not gonna apply to any anyway… and my fun life.. ohh.. and I painted my bike to black so,, now I bike to schoolll which is fun coz it takes me only 5 minutes..

4 class sieh.. cool teacher.. I couldn’t ask for more..

Almost There..

to my pretty friend who told me “Almost there Chel,, it’s almost wikenn.. ” thanksssss..
coz tomorrow in wed..!! means 3 more days to wiken…

God gimme a breakkk.. i need my beauty sleep.. I hella need my beauty sleep backkk..

Kangen..

Gw kangen maen badminton.. hihi.. kangen kok sama maen badminton,, bukannya sama kucruts yaa.. hahhaha..

Udah 4 bulan gak maen nieh.. well emank gw biasanya nggak maen badminton kalo summer (lho kok musiman!?) hihi.. soalnya trauma maen badminton slama spring.. hahahhah.. waitt.. ralat winter n spring.. dan jarang.. jaraanggg banget gw mao maen badmitonton lagi gini2 hari.. (masih trauma) tapi kali ini gw kangen banget maen badminton.. mungkin karena itu satu2nya olahraga yang walo gw vaccum luamaa banget pun gw maish bisa dapet feel nyee.. (tsaaahh..)

haha.. abisnya gw trauma maen basket n volley.. udah lama gak amen basket n volley jadi guooblokk banget.. hahahahha.. (apa emank udah goblok yaakk) well,, ini taon trakhir guahh.. dan everybody again.. EVERYBODY is asking me gw bakal join team gak this year (well,, winter n spring) well,, I said  I might depends on my mood.. hihi.. Though I know,, kalo sampe gw gak ikut team bakal di kejar2 partner gw tercinta n coach rese itu tapi kalo emank males mao gmana.. tapi most likely gw bakal join lagi kok.. pan cita2 mao jd MVP.. buhahahahahhaha.. kalo taon ini gw join dan gak jd mvp gw mao deh jalan jongkok satu mile.. kalo gak coach gw si karen bisa gw kempesin diee.. hahaha..

yap2.. kangen maen badminton with my beautiful arcsaber 10.. one of the nicest piece of art I’ve ever had.. hahhaha.. art.. rrr.. iyah2.. gw lagi mao mengajak kaula muda dan handai dan tolan  kalo pada mao badminton ahh.. ahhahaha…

(FML) extremely upset..

I just can’t believe it..!! I lost it AGAIN..!!! almost the same thing.. the wrist band…!!!

One of the stuffss I treasure the most..!!! my two wrist bands..!!
That thing hella important to me..
Those reminds me of my best friend,, Alex.. ><

dang ittt…. fcuk my lifeee…….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

like seriously.. goshh.. can;t I like have something and llike keep it forever..  why all of them are trying to go away from me.. no effin wayyyy.. hate my self..

 

WHERE ARE YOU GUYS….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Way I Am..

It’s just me.. and I’m sure a lot of people are the same with me as well..

Just don’t freakin’ mess with someone you just barely now.. or at least just don’t be selfish brat.. don’t be freakin’ full of your self coz thou shall go to hell..!!

Me is always me.. when I hate someone,, I hate ‘em.. like really hate ‘em.. I don’t hate someone unless they really bothering me so much.. When someone starts killing my privacy there I will get pissed off..

I mean,, stay away from my life..!! like seriouslyy awaayy.. If I don’t freakin invite you into my life.. don’t come in.. My life isn’t a hotel.. my life is my home and just people I know and comfortable with can come in there..

Unless I’m like hella annoyed it’s hard for me to hate someone.. If you are nice to me,, like seriously i can be ten times nicer than you.. like for reall.. just don’t mess with mee..

I tried to be the calmest person ever.. but these days or these couple years God’s been really hard on me I guess.. He’s testing me.. how patience I am… but God,, patience has limit too You know.. Even I rely on You on everything i;m just a human afterall.. I have emotion I can get mad and crazy I can get pissed to..

This is just an imperfect me..

First Day of School..

Akhirnya hari yang gak gw tunggu2 ini dateng juga.. *gubrak*
Stelah 10 minggu gw libur.. stelah gw bersantai2 ngalor ngidul gak ada kerjaan.. gw mulai juga dengan skola gw yang.. well,, akan menjadi tahun terakhir gw di skola.. (BUAHHAHAHHAHA…)

Gw pikir taon trakhir gw bakal jd miserable gara2 guru inggris gw itu salah satu guru tersusah dsini but noooo..!!! Tuhan berkata lain..!! dia mengubahnyaa..!! hari ini gw dapet guru lain yang baik dan gampang.. dan perfect lah taon trakhir gw di SMA,, dengan hanya 4 kelas dan guru yang guampang2 (smuanya)

Now that I know I got easy teacher.. gw jadi lebih excited untuk memulai taon ajaran ini.. (Jangan..!! di contoh..!!)

Oh well,, gw hepi.. bisa ketemu lagi sama temen2 gw.. temen2 gw yang kiyut2.. huahahaha..btw,, gw lagi di perpus skolaan.. dengan perut yang sakit.. dan teman2 yang pada bertampang ngantuk..

udahh ahhhhhh..

Iri..

Smakin gw liat fb.. dan makin banyak gw liat temen2 yang udah pada kuliah… Gw makin sedih deh.. Banyak temen gw yang jurusannya psikologi, desain, PR,, dkk..

Walo ada beberapa yang bilang gw tuh beruntung untuk bisa skola ke US.. tapi gw malah mikir mreka jau lebih beruntung karena mereka bisa milih jurusan yang mereka suka..

Oh well,, gw pengen stay di high school teruss dan gak lulus2.. karena dsini di HS gw gak perlu milih jurusan.. gw gak perlu berantem sama sapa2 bwt milih jurusan,, gw gak perlu argghh.. gw cape..

Gw pengen jurusan psikologi/communication/Food science.. smua tinggal mimpi belaka.. mimpi yang gak tau kapan pernah jadi kenyataan.. Only if I can redo everything.. I would rather stay in Indo and be my self..
I really wanna trade my study in US with anyone who can be them self.. dang it.. The more I think about it,, the more I’m hating my self…

and again,, life’s never been easy.. never..  fml..

without the one I love the most..

“Yep,, coz school is starting in 2 days… and I remember how I used to do back to school shooping with my mom.. and I know that on Monday my mom won’t waved her hand and kiss me on my cheek and tell me good luck.. =(

and when I called her.. I felt even worst.. “

Maybe I’m so childish for saying that.. but that’s what I feel these few days.. I just miss my mom so much..
I really want her to see and feel how excited am I to be senior and how I really wish her to see it..

I miss my mom.. even when she scolds me coz I’m being naughty.. If I have to wake up every single morning just because my mom wants me to learn how to cook or to help her in the kitchen I seriously would..
I miss her so muchh,, to the point where whenever I heard her voice I would cry..

Maybe coz I know exactly,, if there’s someone alive in this world that love me unconditionally,, that would be her..

Why am I excited for this new school year? it’s because I know that my mom would come to celebrate my graduation with me.. thenI get to see her again.. I get to see my lil bro again..

missed out..

Do you know,, what is the saddest thing of being far away from your family??

For me,, that I have a little brother.. It is really sad to miss out being with him when he grows up and becomes more mature.. It’s really sad that I couldn’t be with him when he was going to high school and tell him what and what not to do..
I didn’t get to see him and his GF and how his cuteness gone and became a man, and just not being there when he needs answer for his curiosity..

It is sad, not to be able to guide him through his high school and life.. I really wanna see him grow up and be a man..

What’s left, Now he wears white-gray uniform (high school uniform) and long pants.. He has a GF, he rides motorcycle, he gets to hang out with his boys..

I didn’t get to teach him math/english/anything.. I didn’t get to tell him what’s life is like in HS,, I didn’t get to be with him when he got into HS..

I love my broo so much.. and if he asks me for disneyland and if I’m capable of giving him it,, I probably would try my best to do it.. I just love him so much.. he is the first guy on my list on my happiness list.. the first guy I want to see him so happy..

The last thing I told him, is not to hurt any girl’s heart, I don’t care if he is being a bad boy or naughty or what, just don’t ever hurt someone’s feeling.. just don’t..!!!! don’t even try..!!
Hopefully that’s not gonna be my last advice for me since he’s growing up and be more mature.. I hope that he will listen to me eventhough he’s entering his adulthood soon..

Unfortunately it’s too late when I realized everything,, when I realized that I would miss these moments,, if I knew it from the begining I would probably think twice.. I would probably not want to leave..

too happy..

Dunno if it’s weird to be happy about this.. haha..

I’m just so happy that I chatted with shinhee..!!! one of youtube artist that I really like.. I just love his voice so much.. maybe he’s the second best after David choi.. If I happend to chat with david Choi I probably would have died in happiness.. hahaha. .

Yeaa..  thanks facebookk..!! so,, I’m friend with him in facebook.. and he was online and I called him.. first coz I was asking for MP3 of him for radio purpose.. (Next broadcast topic would be ‘youtube artist’ too bad it’s gonna be in Indonesian,, or I would’ve email all the youtube artist to stay tuned) I asked for his MP3 well,, eventho he has no original or not as famous as david choi/Aj Rafael/Gabe bondoc BUT..!! I think his voice is better than AJ/Gabe hahaha.. oh well..

and we ended up chatting talking about school and stuffs.. not so long tho,, but it’s enough to make me soo happy..

Next youtuber is singingdork888 ..!!! will be hard.. >< but I wanna talk about him too.. I love some of his covers like the love story one.. haha..

David Choi..!! well,, he’s sharing his mp3 so, there’s no reason for bugging him and ask him for his mp3.. and his original music can be bought from itunes/amazon which I did.. hahaha..

I’m honestly really excited for me next broadcast and introducing these new voices to the listener… and after the preview I gave last time, some of the listeners seemed interested.. haha.. anytime..

can’t wait…